It seems like forever since I have felt like I could breathe. I say this because I have chosen to work full time, go to school online for my Masters in Nursing, while loving and nurturing a growing baby, trying to keep my marriage to my best friend new and fun, stay organized and keep a put together house. This is not an easy feat, but I am working on it and it's getting better every six weeks that pass (the end of a class). I never knew how students in my nursing program went to school with kids and all that comes along with them. Because that was a very selfish time in my life and I needed every second I could get to study. The response from the students would be "you just do it", and I never really understood that until NOW. You do just do it. Like Nike. You figure out time to squeeze it all in. Like they say, you never know until you have been there. I have moments where I feel like quitting school, but I refocus and surge on.
This past week off between classes has been fabulous. No I did not get a massage, or a mani/pedi - which I most desperately need, but I did get piles of papers put away, laundry done, thoughtful cards bought and sent, caught up on Oprah shows (which are dwindling, and I can not believe May 23rd will be the last week!) and Greys Anatomy that I've DVRd for the last month. But I have a weight lifted and I am able to spend more time on the floor with our little man Rohan. Just like everyone says, it goes by so fast. I did not believe the first 4 weeks - I really did not. I was sucked down deep into the hole of sleepless days and nights of feedings and gassy crying spells. I look at Rohan now and he is almost sitting up by himself and eating cereal (soon to start veggies this week). He is 18.5 lbs and 28 inches long! It keeps getting better, but it comes with challenges with every triumph. Apparently that is the case until he is off to college? I see emotional stories on television and I instantly become teary eyed thinking how Rohan will be that old one day. I pull back from trying to imagine where we will be. I did not imagine us to be where we are now.
Rohan and I took a breath of fresh air together Thursday on a nice walk around the neighborhood. I usually make the circle around the lake, but this time I decided to turn around before the road with construction because of all the dirt and dust in the air. I should have kept walking. When we turned around I eyed a black snake (hoping it was a Gardner snake) up in the air hissing with his tongue out. I do have to say we were about 5 feet away - so it was a little startling. I gasped and picked up my step, looking back to make sure it wasn't coming after us. When it realized how close we were and my Pandora music blaring on my blackberry he dropped to the ground and slithered away. Yes SLITHERED.... ewww gives me the chills just thinking about it. So our walks might be detoured for a while.
My week off ends Monday when we plan to have lunch with my Aunt Judy & Uncle Larry. The last time they saw Rohan he was about 3 months, so it will be fun for them to see how Rohan is so much bigger!
I'm ending this entry with Don't Sweat the Small Stuff.
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